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Living in the Past – sharing

Okay my last post about taking on Challenge for Living in the Past, I mentioned I would not share anything as most things can be deeply personal. But there is one thing out of a closet of Pink PostIt® notes, that I’m going to deep dive into and share with you.

When I was about 9 years old, my child-hood friend Kristi, lived just behind my house. We spent tons of time between each other’s houses playing and hanging out. My friend had a fantastically decorated room. Filled with strobe lights that gave off blue and red colors for those days where disco was still ruled by Diana Ross and Cher. And a small disco ball hanging from the bedroom’s ceiling reflecting those cool sparkles around the room. Enough to make you dizzy as we danced and sang to our favorite songs. We both had the usual Barbie dolls and clothing and nick-nacks that go with such toys.

So my memory of ‘past’ experiences that shaped me, and this one has that PostIt® on it. I distinctly remembered the pink plastic bed for Barbie was the only furniture I had. But Kristi had many items for Barbie to recline on, sleep on and tables built for her dolls. Needless to say, our time together was always fun with music, singing, and playtime.

I unfortunately coveted my friend’s only mini wicker chair that made Barbie look like a queen among all other dolls when sitting in it. I remember I was envious and wanted one just like it. But it was not meant to be had. I even asked Mom, if I could have one too. But this was not something sold in stores. Oh well, right?

As a child, we are still learning right from wrong. We sometimes endure painful reminders should we do any bad thing and get disciplined. I did one thing due to envy. I stole my best friend’s little wicker chair one day playing at her house. When I left that day, my Barbies were stuffed into appropriate Barbie cases and so was the chair. When I got home I was so excited for Barbie to have a lovely chair to sit on. Something that I did not have. I remember playing with Barbie the next day and Mom comes in with laundry and noticed that I was playing but something was amiss. The little wicker chair was very noticeable. And I was busted! As my friend, Kristi was not hanging out in my room and my Mom knew my stuff very well, having the singular parental duty of helping me put things away. And the fact that I had asked recently about finding such a chair… Well as you can imagine that was difficult to explain. But I had taken the chair, my friend Kristi had not loaned it to me.

So, knowing that I had been busted and Mom’s stern look and definite pointing to the said item, not mine. I learned that making Mom unhappy was one thing, but the thought that I may have made my best friend unhappy at losing their toy was unbearable.

As soon as I was presentable to go over to Kristi’s house I only took the chair, no toys and Mom was in tow behind me to be sure that I did the right thing. I returned the chair to my friend’s house. I knocked on the door and with the learned ‘I’m sorry I took your toy.” statement on my lips I passed the coveted wicker chair to my friend. I was marched home and still not out of deep water. I was grounded from going to play for 1 week at Kristi’s house. My Mom definitely had let Kristi’s Mom know that I was grounded too.

Needless to say, this was painful as a recapped memory. It’s sometimes the weirdest things we remember. I definitely remember it and learned from it well, for I’ve stayed out of trouble since. I release this memory to the sun-light, and it may be faded now but more so in knowing I forgive myself for being a child doing a childhood thing.

P.S. I remember fondly the fun times that ensued after my grounding was over. My best friend Kristi was not mad at me. She and I remained friends until her family moved away a few years later.  And as luck would have it, I did get to see her again in high-school. She reprised this story when we saw each other, we hugged and graduated together.

~Healing in bits and pieces

Nims

 

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Rant II

So a while ago I posted Rant, and it seemed that small things were getting my goat. I was completely unaware what was causing my griping. And today still have no idea as to what is giving me the short run on patience but I did get a little insight as to what may be making me feel different than before.

I was meditating, taking walks, scribbling/doodling and have tried my hand at some crocheting and still I lose my patience. Other days it felt like I was losing my “Joie de Vivre!”  I’ve been documenting the last few months and still had no clues as to what is happening to me. So I go talk to my doctor who says in a nutshell, that I’m getting older. Yeah, my birthday comes around every year. And that I’m most likely going into menopause. Since last time I visited I was apparently pre-menopausal. So the transition can cause quick temper changes and mood swings. Just to name a few.

Yikes! I’m like, “What the hell!” Does this mean that the ‘nice’ person I am is now going to get all temperamental and bitchy? I’ve literally been documenting my food, my weight, my migraines and the issue is – I’m going into menopause??

I personally like my previous good moods. The kind that I have as a ‘flighty Gemini’. Yes indeed, I’m a flighty, quick speaking, happy-go-lucky Gemini. But apparently the flip-side Twin, is unveiling her face for the time being.  Now the Doctor said that there are supplements that I can take, but she doesn’t get technical. And if my moods and such get really out control then I can revisit and talk about medications that can be tried.

Horoscope Gemini

Okay, now you know all those commercials for all the drugs that cure psoriasis, depression, bipolar etc., ‘in your face’ ad-nauseum.  Hard to avoid those pesky commercials. And all the lovely ‘disclosed’ side-effects that can happen to a person if taking them. Right? Well I’m like – NO, not for me. And I’m in my mind having a short mental conversation exploring the more gentle homeopathic methods and or other dietary changes that I can affect that will make my life, or at least my moods happier.

Well here’s to taking the road less traveled in this day and age. The non-prescription road to keeping me sane, happy or at least a happier human. I make no guarantees that I won’t continue to rant, but I do hope that I don’t turn people against me. I’m a social loving person and can you imagine an ostracized Butterfly? Me neither, I’d drive myself nuts.

Anyhow, that’s the current low down on the Rant previous and following up right now. For all you lovelies who read this buckle up. I hope the ride is at least gentle from here on out. But will someone keep a chocolate bar on hand?

You can ready my previous post here:  Rant

P.S. Keep the chocolate on the list and all is right with the world. (No, really keep it coming.)

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