Well the last challenge has finally come. Thank goodness in many ways that the Challenges were only 5! This last one was something that seems appropriate in being the last one. This one, in my opinion, goes hand-in-hand with the previous challenges. But it lay hidden in the background and not hogging the lime-light. In the end, Overthinking was not as hard as the other challenges.
The main thing that Overthinking has shown is that it excacerbated the other challenges. I overthought the process. You could say I did ‘Overthink’ on each one. The thought process was catharic and allowed for all sorts of mental and emotional release. A healing of sorts, in that memories, emotional entanglements, mental anguish and physical reactions all got a chance to have their moment in the sun.
Overthinking, has brought about delays in decisions and I do not mean procrastination. Delays in emotional release of anger, regrets, love, hate etc. The spectrum of the human condition that you can put yourself through. Can you sense all the things that needs attention and give it equal attention? No. You cannot. Obsess about the needs and there is ‘overthinking’ appearing.
What do I take away from this Challenge?
- Wasting too much time in the thought process and not enough time in the doing process.
- Go out and do things no matter how small they are, they are a joy that only you can measure.
- If you think it, you can go do it and have joy in the energetic return that it brings. As long as it brings you happiness, and maybe a small smile that only you understand.
- Worrying about the ‘Will it go right?’, ‘Will it get done?’, ‘Can I do this?’, ‘Should I do this?’ etc. phrases, is more than enough time to toss those thoughts into a circular bin.
- Do a challenge once, even if you never do it again.
Be your best friend, be the one that hears your joys, sorrows, dreams, hopes and embrace all that. Invite in the thoughts, and hear them well. Plan out your spontanity and go for it! Overthinking was slowing me down and I wanted to listen and do. The only overthinking I want to do, is the future remenicencing that I will share with family and friends down the road. I want to be the storyteller that shares in the wonders and joys of things done, not washed in somber shades of regret.
Thank you all for being on this journey. And if there was one from the list of “5 Things to Quit Right Now” that you missed feel free to use the links to check those previous topics. If you decide to tackle 1 of the 5 feel free to share, how you overcame it.
Love you to pieces,
- Challenge #1 – Trying to Please Everyone
- Challenge 2- Fearing Change, Challenge #2 Recap -“Fear of Change”
- Challenge #3 – Living In The Past
- Challenge #4 – Putting Yourself Down
Choosing the ‘Word’ for an entire year was new to me last year. Remembering how awed I was to find one that spoke volumes, was powerful. This year its time to stretch out and grab a new one that fits like a comfy jacket, but you find is not comfy at all. One meant to make you break the mold and go outside those boundaries you may have laid up this past year. I took a few minutes to clear my mind just to ask it the question, “What word will define your endeavors this year?”, and will you embrace it no matter what.
I started with deep breathes and felt the words just float up like low eddies of leaves in a stirring wind. I plucked at a few, and more as they swirled into view. Then let go of many, back into the current dissolving away. Power words flowed quickly and slowly, most felt and tasted like warm cup of cocoa and so I knew it was a word from my comfort zone. One floated around and swished around my feet and caught my eye. I saw this fiery edging on this word, and it was so powerful, and outside of my comfort-zone. One word – ‘brave’.
There it was, pulsing in all its beauty, not dressed up screaming all in CAPS but lower case. Gentle looking yet powerful. An extrovert by nature and happiest making others laugh even if I am the brunt of my own humor. Seeing this word makes me shiver unsure how we will get along. Taking another deep breath, making myself step towards ‘brave’ edged in fire’s glow makes me scared enough to run. With that feeling of risk and breathlessness I intuitively embrace it. It will breathe life into my dreams and stoke the flames of my shy creativity higher this year. Deep down there is no overthinking this. This word inspires you to leave second thoughts behind.
Brave means different things. It means be assertive, work on boundaries, and believe in yourself. There will be more to uncover this year, no doubt. No one else will know what that single word means to you, but you. This year it is all about ‘You’, your knowledge, your craft, your love, and your creative soul. You again reach for your word, but it does not scorch or wound, but fire you up and make your eyes glow and your inner soul sing.
I took a moment to just inhale and exhale the word in that one breath… ‘brave’. Thereby allowing it to solidify its presence into my essence. A decision that is unchangeable and already sweeping in and burning a new path in this ‘brave’ new year.
What is your word? What is your “brave”?
Some of this is is rumination and some may seem rhetorical. I consider the below just my observations and opinions from my side of the window.
Okay “fear” that ugly 4-letter word. “Fear of the Unknown”. It is one of those icky things we have facing us on a daily basis. Well all I can say is that I’m getting tired of trying to forget it, acknowledge it and talk my way through it.
Weekly I check in on Facebook and try to keep up with my friends. I’m seeing a trend of sickness, “fear” of losing the job, or “fear” of not getting a job and a cringing kind of “gird-the-loins” version of courage that remind me of the Lion from “The Wizard of Oz”. (Don’t misjudge, I love the Lion!)
I scratch my head at times perplexed, wondering what has happened. Why this sudden constant stream of the above issues? I see the trend but can’t conceive of what is at the root of so many things going awry. Some physical responses, of course is just common sense, such as getting sick is just that. We catch the germs and “Boom”, laid low for a while.
Watching and reading I’m seeing it (Fear) become the body’s reaction to too many stressors. So my opinion the root cause? “Fear” has stepped in and stolen the keys to our house. It has slithered in to stay and cause all manner of upset. Whether it’s small or large is irrelevant, it’s become an unwelcome house guest.
I’ve imagined myself sitting in front of “it” and grabbing it by the throat and giving it a good throttle. At other times, I shrink and feel myself flatting myself to stay low out of it’s sight. That ugly 4-letter word has gripped it’s bird-like claws into so many, I’m overwhelmed at how many are suffering. And at the manner in which that suffering has played out on them.
All I can think of is that I need to continue to shield by physical body with good habits. Sleep being the hardest one and the one I am most tardy at keeping in my schedule. Meditate to help relax and prepare my mind to be relaxed and refreshed. If needed, finding those skilled in coaching or energy sessions or other disciplines. Remember that even those who help others, need help from many diverse areas of Health Care (for lack of better words) for the Holistic, Scientific and Medical fields and those I may not have mentioned.
Here is where my “Fear of the Unknown” stops. Changes ahead, one step at a time.
…Change, she is coming….
As I enter the end of this year, Ups & Downs of 2017, I realize that I have lots to be thankful for. Friends, a home, a job and determination. Yes, determination has cropped up in my vocabulary! (chuckles) I find that this year of multiple weather disasters has not put many people down but instead, more determined to be prepared, more mentally resilient and in some cases embrace a more “laid-back” attitude to Mother Nature and her ..uh-huh Tantrums.
I learned a lesson in letting go, one that the Universe has tried to nudge me into doing on my own. But because I ignored the prompts, hints and all that includes she, yes Universe is a “she”, for me she took the reigns and decided that I’d lose some personal items that I valued very high in my life over others. And decided to have me “lose” them. Learning from that has been the eye-opener that I needed to understand that having a “death-clutch” on things does me no good and makes my view of this world and my place in it a narrow point of view.
I have called myself front and center and owned that I needed that “kick in the pants” but am humbled by how forgiving the Universe has been once it realizes that I have acknowledged the lesson and gives me a gentle pat on the shoulder and nudges me forward for my greater good. What is that “greater good” she has promises you say? Well, it’s a loaded list and I’ll send you crazy with all the little things, so only a few items will I share.
Foremost, I have realized that I may have thought I had my path outlined for me regarding writing (obviously not) hence I would not be writing what I am. [Yes, I am my own worst enemy and overly critical. So I nod my head to the ‘analytical Gemini’ in me.] So I have “gently pinned” a sticky note to my front conscious to be nice but be steady in my promises. Remember what I can and cannot keep due to deadlines, work and other responsibilities. Secondly that great task master “Time Management”! Ha! I have learned that the Calendar app in my phone is not my enemy but my greatest assistant!
So I go right-foot forward into 2018 with brighter eyes, grace and newer perspective on what I need to do to achieve those elusive goals I’ve been putting out there for years. Throwing out the list of new goals and embracing the old ones that mean the most to me and trimming that too long “To Do List” once and all. I promise to not be my “own worst enemy”, be kind when I slip and to remember once in a while to see around and not just what’s in front of me.
I wish all my friends that you find that lovely balance and stick to it as best you can. May 2018 be a gentler and wonderful year for you and your endeavours.
Many Blessings and Happy New Year!
See you next year!
“Ranger Martin and The Search for Paradise”
This is the third installment of the Ranger Martin trilogy. All I can say is WOW! It picks up directly after book 2 and you are off and running! Strap on your knives, gun holster and nerves of steel. No spoilers here-> but be prepared for the tugging and pulling this story is going to take you on. So pull up a chair and prepare for the most fantastic journey your going to have this year. You’re not going to want to put this book down.
This book will have you cheering for Ranger, Jon, Matty and Randy. All the pickles they get themselves into to save their rag-tag family and those they save along the way. It will definitely have you biting your nails as you are gripped in the middle of the melees that happen to them on their quest to ‘Paradise’. You want to be there to shout out “behind you!” You want to be there to shoot down some “chewers” to help them out.
Be prepared to have your nerves frayed and the story to keep you on the edge of your seat. Up, down and some very infrequent moments of the elusive peace settle like a cozy blanket only to have it ripped off before you know it.
Ranger and crew have some interesting twists in their journey. First to get home to the silo and then the journey to San Francisco. Trust is fleeting in this new world order, but it is a requirement to be part of Ranger’s group. (The story about trust with each character will have you thinking internally of yourself and putting yourself in their shoes. Enjoy those self-introspections between the shoot outs!) There are good guys and bad guys but the line between the two leaves you guessing at times.
So enjoy and take a fast, gut wrenching journey and cheer for your favorites!
—-Author’s Info: Website: Jack Flacco
There is no cure. The change is permanent. Whoever says they can fix this is wrong.
Months ago, billions of people died in the zombie apocalypse. The survivors either have become refugees looking for a way out or have turned against each other. No one will admit they killed their friend for a package of raisins. It happens though, and there isn’t anything anyone can do about it.
Undead slayer Ranger Martin makes the unforgiving Arizona desert his home. He has never had to defend it. He has never had to kill anyone for it. If anything, he has shelved his shotgun and has taken an early retirement package.
That is, until now.
When the military lays siege on his silo, Ranger and his crack team of professionals—a bunch of kids, really—have no other choice than to run. But after he discovers a map that may lead to a mythic city called Paradise, where neither army nor zombie can invade, Ranger mounts a cross-state journey to find the place of safety before the others find him and it’s too late.
I received an ARC ebook in exchange for an honest review. IMHO this is a great book and I’ve enjoyed all the ‘Ranger Martin’ books. –A.M. “Nims”
I was thinking the past few weeks and I realize that this year has been changing for me. Slowly but surely in the area of my health. Particularly my migraine management.
So I have suffered for long time with migraines and I’ve tried a lot of things to help alleviate the pain when it hits. It triggered my research into Reiki a form of energy work to facilitate healing. I had some people do healings targeting my head area and there was some relief but it is sometimes not affordable. So I looked into getting certified myself so that I could do sessions on myself.
I did experience relief and I continue with self applied Reiki sessions. My results were that the pain levels are less and the days the migraine lasts has shortened a bit. All bonuses that I hope to keep in my court.
During the summer I was at a Mystic Faire and one of the vendors had some lovely crystal and Tibetan bowls. But I was intrigued by some zinc and copper rods that he was demonstrating. When I was able to try these rods out I was able to find out a bit more their purpose. Called “The Rods of Isis” they are filled with healing intent, essential oils and crystals and a few other things. Meant to help balance and align the user.
I decided to see if I felt anything while holding them. I felt warmth in my hands and then some cold traveled around my hands and feet. Then some vibrations in the hands and noticed a little swaying around my head. A bit of an imbalance, so one of the things to keep balance was to switch the rods to other hands to bring things back into alignment. Which I did and things calmed down. I also noted how I felt clearer in the head.
So yes, I decided to invest in these rods and put them together with my Reiki healings to see if I could further shorten my migraines time frame hanging on. And see if they had an impact on the pain levels. While using Reiki I was only able to shorten my migraine by about a day and pain levels only went down a few notches.
When I added the rods to the regimen I was able to get my days shortened by one additional day and the pain levels have hit the half way mark! Which is awesome because dealing with pain is worse than how long it lasts. This type of headache becomes manageable with the rods. As soon as I stopped using them as part of the healing sessions then the length and pain levels returned to the same intensity and length before adding in the rods. So, I added the rods again and experienced the same relief I mentioned before. This has become part of my routine now. There are times where the migraine kicks in and it is brutal and the rods and Reiki don’t seem to have any affect on it at all. I call it a day and just hope the next day is better.
So change has some and it is for the better health wise. Happy for now and glad to have found a tool that helps improve my overall health. Cheers! To your health.
This picture I took back in February this year, with it’s foggy look early in the morning hours, got me thinking. It was taken in the Florida Panhandle, a place called Carillon Beach, near Panama City. I was going through my pictures and trying to make some kind of order aside from the timeline that I took them in. (Well that is going to be a long project.)
So the thinking part…well it was along the lines that when the season of Fall comes around it gets cooler, and fog sometimes is a part of it. Where I live now you don’t see the seasons change much and fog is almost unheard of. We long for cold snaps that the weatherman promises will pass through. Kind of like how a child longs for snow to fall so they don’t have to go to school for a day or two.
It brought to mind how I grew up as a kid in Virginia and how the days grew crisp. The leaves changed color and the skittering sound of wind blown leaves, already on the ground. Shorts and flip-flops were packed away and jeans and sweaters hold sway. And one of the fun times that I looked forward to was Halloween, with it’s spookiness, fog, frolic and fun.
Well, I leave you this picture that got through the cobwebs in my mind and got me thinking. Here’s to another change in the seasons, to the change it brings us all regardless of where we reside. Calling us back to remembered childhood fun.
Migraines, they are a pain in the arse. They are, for most who suffer them, a great way to suddenly have war declared on bits and pieces of your neck and head. I included a picture of Tension and Migraine headache. I suffer the one on the right-side of the picture.
For me migraines are something to be cured as soon as possible. If they are caught in time they are ‘managed’ by homeopathic means. And I can function somewhat clumsily through a few days. When I don’t catch them in time, no amount of homeopathic methods will work, nor will my stronger over the counter choices of Advil, Aleve or Excedrin for migraines will kick the pain. Might as well be throwing M&M’s at me.
What kind of inkling do I get as a warning that a migraine is going to be hard on me? Sometimes I start to squint even when I wear my eyeglasses. Or I may smell things 10x’s stronger than they really are as the olfactory goes into overdrive. Hearing things gets harder as if you have ear muffs on, muffling sound. Nausea was great indicator but sometimes that can be false, because you could just be sick. Or I get nothing and BAM! game over before it’s begun.
Describing pain and symptoms is hard, and I’ll try that in another post. Although fellow blogger Emily gives a great rating system based on sound for her migraines. If interested, you can check her post out. Emily has migraines all the time. I only have my migraines last 3-5 days tops. I used to have them 2-3 times a month, now I have them once a month.
So my management used to be:
- I tried upping the recommended dose of Advil, still the headache would blossom into fierce skull splitting migraines. (Headaches last a few hours, migraines last for days)
- Aleve made its audience debut, tried it, great for body aches etc, but not migraines
- Excedrin for Migraines, I popped them like candy and still they came, they conquered and I receded whimpering under covers.
- I thought Guided Meditation would take them away. I used to go every week for a year. No, they still came pretty regularly. I eventually stopped going. Have not been to a meditation in year in a half. (Great for stress and anxiety relief which I did benefit from.)
- Instead tried Yoga mantra chants. Thinking that this would be a lovely and stress management type of tool. Easy to learn and each class came with the chant on paper. No, they still came just as regularly.
- Homeopathic migraine treatments. Most come in pill form that dissolve easily under the tongue. Wow, minor breakthrough! If caught early enough the pain was reduced. It didn’t go away entirely but it allowed me to function.
- I still include cup of coffee for the caffeine, up the cups to 2 or 3 to do battle if necessary
- Dark room if all else failed, lights off, no sound, head under pillows and buried under covers in bed
My management now:
- I still use homeopathic remedies. Works the best and I rotate through a couple of different brands so that my body will not get used to one.
- Ice pack wrapped in cloth applied to back of neck to alleviate stabbing pain (20 Min. on/off)
- I still use coffee for the caffeine, sometimes it’s just enough to keep things in check
- Learned Reiki levels I and II. This is so that I can help facilitate healing, in the hopes that my migraine will not get the best of me.
- Have I had a complete cure with Reiki at this time? No
- Have I had some relief with Reiki? Yes, someone applied Reiki to my head and neck and some relief was felt. (That’s how I was exposed to Reiki and how I started my journey in learning Reiki for myself.)
- Dark room if all else fails, lights off, no sound, head under pillows and buried under covers in bed
I’ll continue on with the existing treatments, they are working for the most part. Have I tried acupuncture? Not yet, although friends have given me pamphlets, names and recommendations about others who have felt relief and some who no longer suffer from them.
If I do go get acupuncture will update this blog and let you know the outcome. Until then, will work on explaining what my migraine symptoms are like. Maybe it’ll help others.
[Disclaimer: No way is any of the above to be taken as ‘final proof’ in diagnosing migraines and treatment. Nor for remedies in getting relief. Seek professional opinions and go from there. I did and the above is what I do and is no way a prescribed way for others.]
So a while ago I posted Rant, and it seemed that small things were getting my goat. I was completely unaware what was causing my griping. And today still have no idea as to what is giving me the short run on patience but I did get a little insight as to what may be making me feel different than before.
I was meditating, taking walks, scribbling/doodling and have tried my hand at some crocheting and still I lose my patience. Other days it felt like I was losing my “Joie de Vivre!” I’ve been documenting the last few months and still had no clues as to what is happening to me. So I go talk to my doctor who says in a nutshell, that I’m getting older. Yeah, my birthday comes around every year. And that I’m most likely going into menopause. Since last time I visited I was apparently pre-menopausal. So the transition can cause quick temper changes and mood swings. Just to name a few.
Yikes! I’m like, “What the hell!” Does this mean that the ‘nice’ person I am is now going to get all temperamental and bitchy? I’ve literally been documenting my food, my weight, my migraines and the issue is – I’m going into menopause??
I personally like my previous good moods. The kind that I have as a ‘flighty Gemini’. Yes indeed, I’m a flighty, quick speaking, happy-go-lucky Gemini. But apparently the flip-side Twin, is unveiling her face for the time being. Now the Doctor said that there are supplements that I can take, but she doesn’t get technical. And if my moods and such get really out control then I can revisit and talk about medications that can be tried.
Okay, now you know all those commercials for all the drugs that cure psoriasis, depression, bipolar etc., ‘in your face’ ad-nauseum. Hard to avoid those pesky commercials. And all the lovely ‘disclosed’ side-effects that can happen to a person if taking them. Right? Well I’m like – NO, not for me. And I’m in my mind having a short mental conversation exploring the more gentle homeopathic methods and or other dietary changes that I can affect that will make my life, or at least my moods happier.
Well here’s to taking the road less traveled in this day and age. The non-prescription road to keeping me sane, happy or at least a happier human. I make no guarantees that I won’t continue to rant, but I do hope that I don’t turn people against me. I’m a social loving person and can you imagine an ostracized Butterfly? Me neither, I’d drive myself nuts.
Anyhow, that’s the current low down on the Rant previous and following up right now. For all you lovelies who read this buckle up. I hope the ride is at least gentle from here on out. But will someone keep a chocolate bar on hand?
You can ready my previous post here: Rant
P.S. Keep the chocolate on the list and all is right with the world. (No, really keep it coming.)